When will he make his debut?

I truly think that the main thing that God has tested me through this past year is my desire to be in control. From not knowing when Don would be leaving for Officer Candidate School and when we would be moving to now wondering when baby Sawyer is going to make his arrival. I think these are pretty big things and have been good lessons to realize and remind myself that God's timing is always the perfect time. The hard part is just having that desire to KNOW when my son, wow that sounds weird and exciting all at once, will be here. Sometimes at night, when Don and I are just hanging out, I wonder, will this be our last night just the two of us? It's a very weird concept since I really like to plan out my days!

Last night I stayed awake for most of the night dealing with low back pain. I was thinking...is this it?! Will it be tonight?! The pain wasn't consistent, so I didn't figure it was time, but just the thought and excitement and nervousness made it become very real. I didn't want to wake Don up b/c he had to get up really early for work today, but I thought....well, should I wake him up, this might be it! Well, the pain finally subsided at sometime early this morning and I was able to get some shut eye.

On Tuesday mornings, I have Bible study at a church about 30 minutes away. I decided not to go and to sleep more. I called a friend that also goes and let her know I wouldn't be there. She totally understood but said, "please don't feel pressured, but we were planning a surprise baby shower for you today!" How sweet! My back wasn't hurting then and I figured I could nap this afternoon. I knew they went out of their way, so I figured I could rally and get there. I was an hour late, but I'm so glad I went. I felt so blessed by all these women that have just known me for a little over a month and here they are bringing gifts for Sawyer. It was such a nice morning! I made it home, put up the presents, ate lunch and took a great nap!!!!